Dont feel like putting up any songs because I am still addicted with b what you wanna b by darin.

All that I felt these few days was sleepy. Serious. I feel like sleeping instead of going to school which I normally won't. But yeah, I am tired. Perhaps tired of some loneliness which I felt during certain lessons, except when FAREHA is beside me. I love joking with her, cause I guess after all, she will be the one I talk more often in class. And I love drawing on her table. Haha.

Well, I don't have any idea why I kept wanting to sleep now adays. It as seem so unusual. Gosh. And I really feel like sleeping while typing this post.

Something I wanna say to My NEHNA,
I don't know why you felt left out. I guess is the feeling inside your heart. Maybe something is blocking you towards something, maybe its the funeral whcih made you more not strong as usual. I dont know, but I guess your situation is always better then mine. REMEBER, appearance doesn't mean anything. I never tell you guys my feeling because I remeber huili's word, sometimes, its betetr to keep things to yourself. I kept and that why I feel like I am suffering, I know I may sound so not concern about your situation now, but I am no teeling you my situation. SO compare, you left out or me?

All my sisters, this is how I felt during class and ect.
First I have different subjects with you all, so I am so-called all alone in FNN, think, I also seldom closely related to the guys. The only few I always ask question are samson and junior. Others are so not often. Don't talk about the guys, you all in DNT also can talk more, actually I almost can't get into what you guys are saying. Thats why at times I kept quiet and somehow suan back by giving sarcastic comments. I have to harm just that I really don't know what on earth I should say. In class, I find all opportunities to get around you guys so we can talk or what, but always don't work out. Cause you all are busy with your own conver or work ect. So I talk with Fareha, sometimes junior, samson ect. I always hear the laughter coming from you guys, and also from huili. You all really know how on earth I felt? But I dont put blame on you guys. I guess I am more to be a lil anti social now adays. Dont feel like talking much. Cause I seriously felt more left out then how diana is feeling now. Diana, you have got all of us sisters, your daddy amos, your gor gor sam, and so on to care about you. I may not know why you feel left out but, I guess things will slowly change. Nothing ever stays the same. I know I have also got sisters who care but. who ever really cared when I was super lonely. I think huili was the first one who start sitting beside me during some lesson. I felt great cause I know someone is sitting beside helping me. THanks huili, I love you to the max. I guess I stop here, I dont wanna continue. If I continue, I guess sisters wont be so sisters anymore. I love all of you.

If you want to know, thats really how I felt and I cried while typing out this. Cause I really don't know what to do. Guess, I am going to be independent and continue with my studies instead of friendship. Thanks for reading this post. I hope you understand. And you guys dont have to tag on the board to encourage me or what-so-ever. I don't need that i guess, my heart is numb. I wont feel anything from now on. Bye.

Michelle-