太多事情发生了，我也不知从何说起。。。

就从我先说起吧。我觉得我自己不是个很好的朋友。我不会安慰人。我不会‘说话’。也许就是因为这些事情我擦发现‘my true self’。 也许这就是为什么每当我朋友很难过，我不知该怎么办。我很想安慰你但是我不知道怎么开口。可是每当我们问你还好吗？你都会说没事。。 谁然不相信你真的是‘没事’可是我们真的不知道因该对你说一些什么。

I just want you to know, we really care about you. Perhaps you didn't want to tell me but you can speak up to Diana or xueli. Till now, I still think that to you, my trust is not so 'trust-able' perhaps not but i wont forget that we had a quarrel during the life in sec 2. I have already forgotten why we even quarrel but now, I really don't want to lose you. Without you with us is not like the real us in the 'group'. Hope you understand. You are the one who will be there for us when we need you however, when you need us, we didn't approach you. Maybe is because we know that who wont listen to us so we let you alone to cool down then to tell you everything that may make you more emo or sad or even something you wont even listen.

You can say we don't understand you, but i hope you really do understand yourself. That when you really get to know your true feelings, control your emotions and so on. I admit that I dont understand you as well as Xueli or Diana, but I tried to. And what I really think now is that you don't really understand yourself.

I had realize it that whenever we speaks of him, you kept quiet. Then you will go 'emo' after that. This is a problem you have to face now, don't get yourself to into the 'it'. Try to pull yourself out a little cause you fell too deep into it and its controlling you now. You are no longer the one to joke about everything to us. I really hope you will pull yourself up and continue on with the most important thing to us now, studies. Remind yourself, you are sitting for 'O' level this year. You have no time for all this emotions. Go for studies first and then think of it. Like me and Xueli, we are going on for our studies. Except for bbt, to me, studies is really first now. You might think that I am talking rubbish. But I will prove to you, I am really going into studies and get into the course I want.

You can say that, I dont know your feeling now. I can say, I dont know, maybe because I have no one that I really want to love right now or maybe I have, but its just a mere one. I dont know, but just that even if I got one now, I will just want to be able to see him everyday and thats it. I dont know what to carry on.

I hope you really will think about it and get over with this. You are NOT isolated by us. remember , you are NOT. You will always be one of us, and part of us. I love you. Just like how I love the others. I will regret if I lost such a great friend like you.

ps, I am not trying to mean anything here but just hope that this post can help you a little by aying out what I think. TAKE GREAT CARE. [: