Dont let this blog go emo.
Seriously, I think I am breaking down anytime, too much things happen in too little time.
I just could not get through one thing and another came.
How I just wish I was dead. perhaps not luhs. I want to enjoys life, but it doesnt seems so now.
Friendship now, is in a mess.
and now, my uncle. .
I just hope that he could get through the operation and nothing more. I will pray hard for him, I will.
After all this, I really felt that I am not a good daughter. Perhaps those trying-to-get-away from family gatherings have not help me to treasure and cherish. 2 gone and both are the one I wasnt really close to. But in my heart, they are. I couldn't cry though i was really sad.
OBS, actually on the day b4 my uncle pass away, I actually refuse to go for OBS. but I went. I thought it could help me stop thinking about it, but I found out I was just deceiving myself.
I really dont know what to do now, someone please direct me to the road of happiness which i lost long.
Perhaps, you told me too much that I dont wanna know.
I rather be kept in secret.
The more I help, the more I'm hurt.
I couldn't go on anymore. Give me a break will you.
I am sorry for everything.
Perhaps, now I know what amos really means. I got too much things inside of me which makes me to be like this, I am sorry for the attitude, I am sorry for the unkindness, I am sorry for everything which hurts anyone of you.
If you really knows, I wish you could help me.